kata-kata andita

masih banyak hal yang ingin aku berikan untukmu. masih banyak hal yang ingin aku lakukan bersamamu. masih banyak spontanitas dan kejutan aneh yang ada dikepalaku yang diperuntukkan untukmu. masih banyak senyum dan tawa yang tertuju dariku untukmu. tapi aku cukup sadar untuk menyadarkan diri, bahwa kamu belum membutuhan hal, spontanitas, kejutan aneh, senyum dan tawa itu. kadang dalam setiap keterbatasanku, aku tidak pintar menghindari jiwa dan raga yang teradiksi untuk membutuhkanmu. aku pun masih bertanya-tanya kepada hatiku, mengapa aku masih saja menganggapmu prioritas dalam pilihanku--padahal aku hanyalah pilihan dalam prioritasmu. tapi aku tidak merasa rugi kok. malah aku senang. aku senang karena aku masih punya perasaan untuk merasa. tidak peduli itu rasa apa. yang aku tahu, aku peka. dan aku tahu, kamu ada. walau harus ditutupi pelangi atau dihalang awan. * sajak yang tercipta saat menunggu Prisca Akhaya yang tak kunjung datang--aku laper abuuu .* picture's source

Indeed.. I want to keep that green tree inside. But what If its dried already? What if the rain isn't gonna keep it grows strong--its wilting the leaves instead. Would there still be a pretty bird to come, says hi, and cheers the tree up? [picture source]

Sometimes I still think about how sweet it is to just sit down with someone, drink a nice cup of hot chocolate with tiny love shaped marshmallow, and just talk about the two of us without any distractions. I wonder if I still remember how it feels... I look back to find out when is the last time I did the similar thing? The thing that I've been wondering. Forget the hot chocolate part. Ice cream and tea could fit in so well to replace it. And I finally realize, its been so long. So very long :\ (the picture was taken from here )

I'm officially a corny person right at this second. And I was stupidly googling the greatest quotes from greatest romantic movies. Here are some that I found from this one site 1. City of Angels “I would rather have had one breath of her hair, one kiss from her mouth, one touch of her hand, than eternity without it.” 2. Don Juan Demarco “Have you never met a woman who inspires you to love ? Until your every sense is filled with her? You inhale her. You taste her. You see your unborn children in her eyes and know that your heart has at last found a home. Your life begins with her, and without her it must surely end.” 3. West Side Story “Make of our hands one hand. Make of our hearts one heart. Make of our vows one last vow. Only death will part us now.” 4. The Bridges of Madison County “It seems right now that all I’ve ever done in my life is making my way here to you.” 5. The Notebook “The best love is the kind that awakens the soul and makes us reach for more, that pla

I finally felt what's the true meaning of "fun weekend". Last week my besties (read: Cherly, Picka, Cindy, and Geboy) and I were spending 2 crazy days in Jakarta . It was hella fun . I've never gone to Jakarta by my self with Public Transportation. I've always been picked up by someone. This weekend I got a chance to go to Jakarta. With angkots and buses!haha. We went on Friday--which is the most hectic period in highway area--you see cars as they're making long lines.haha Though I had a pretty long sleep in the bus, I enjoyed the journey so much. I could smell the kota metropolitan along the way. I relished the lari-lari ngejar bus lanjutan part. I didn't care about the sweats which were falling on my body. I really enjoyed those moments. We didn't do much actually. We only went to 2 kind of places--shopping and eating places--ahaha But the togetherness and craziness are the two words that I will miss the most . Though it was kinda tiring, b

For the first time in my life, the combination of these very low numbers spiced up my senses. Yes. This is my first GPA. Its 4 months already; it means one semester is already gone. (say hello to the upcoming 7 semesters Dita!!! *sigh) I can imagine the smile of my mother's face when I told her about it. What did I feel when I found out? Happy, proud, thankful, yet I'm scared . Yes. Truly scared. Maintaining isn't as easy as getting (though the process of getting this low-numbers wasn't that easy either;still perfectly remember how I swam deep into those freakin huge textbooks- -its not over yet Dita ) God gave me this, and now is my turn to make it 'stay', higher, or lower (oh no...) -- be grateful Dit ! Work harder, pray more, and completely put your self AWAY from that noun called arrogant ^_^

Always count your blessings. That's what I put at the bottom of this lovely blog. Shame on me who is always want more and more and more--pathetically still feel that things are just not enough and never be enough! What do you want Dita? Fresh air to breath? Food to eat? Place for dreaming? Great family? Good friends? Love? Don't you have that all already? It's not that hard to be thankful. Is it? (wonder) (angels) (miracle) Thank you God. So very much :)

(I took this--kinda--long note from my facebook. I wrote it on December 31 2009. It's already been there for weeks and has been commented by people. But It'll be good to re-post it in my very new blog. Since my life now is all about starting all over again-- literally -- I want to restart my life as in magnifying the energy inside which has been shrunk in the last three months...) Goodbye 2009 and helloooooo 2010 =) So, it only hours before the upcoming year—2010—jeng..jeng..jeng..jeeeeng! (lebay ah) Semua orang sibuk bernostalgia, bernostalgila, berpesta dan beresolusi. Kalo aku ikut2an ga dosa lah ya.. hehe Itung2 sharing. Yaah siapa tau aja kaledoskop kecil ini bisa mempengaruhi banyak orang. Ahahaha (ga banget deh dit, udah lah nulis aja sih) Ok..ok.. 2009 has been an- oh my God-year -for me. Banyak banget hal-hal yang terjadi, terlewati, terpatri, dan pantas untuk jadi bahan pertimbangan di 2010. To make it easy, I want to rewind my memory into those months. January 2009 W

(I wrote this last night and posted it earlier on my facebook notes) Go. Pergi. Kejarlah mimpi itu. toh kamu tidak butuh aku. Go. Pergi. Raihlah sari pati hidup itu. toh aku tidak lagi berhak mengusik dan mengisi celah. Go. Pergi. Terbanglah ke utara. toh selatan sudah tak lagi menarik untuk dilirik. Go. Pergi. Berlarilah mengejar bintang. toh bulan tak akan beranjak. Go. Pergi. Jangan pedulikan suara-suara di hati. toh pada akhirnya bisikan di otak akan selalu menguasai. Go. Pergi. Pergilah. Kemanapun kau hendak berhenti. (dita. January 11th 2010)

So. I have had two other blogs before. And they all are awfully neglected by me (*sigh). Then I realize, there's never too late for a start right? Now I want to (start to) write here for real. Seriously. (haha--talk to the mirror Dita ^o^)